What's growing up..?

I have been thinking a lot in what I want to do once I grow up. But now I have been suffering a bit because growing up mean different things to every person. Somehow, ever since I read "Le Petit Prince" I have been having this feeling of reluctancy to become an adult. Of course, that is something I can not decide on. I can only look for a way to do it. 

I don't know if becoming a bit more serious is part of being adult. I don't know if the process of party-ing and doing crazy things is a necessary thing while being young in order to grow up (I am certainly  skipping that part for now) I just want to know if I to take steps forward I need to let go of some things that might be considered childish. 
It is really confusing because I want to be an artist. I know it sounds like a crazy dream for many of the adults I know that have heard me say it. But I simply want to do it. (That's the teenage rebellious part) "It's my life". And drawing or painting is sometimes a considered as a childish thing. So I get a double message here. 

Now about the blog. 
I have been thinking and trying to do several DIYs in the last days. I took the pictures and everything, but somehow I don't feel like it is the thing I want to do anymore. Maybe the blog should grow, or maybe I should let it go and star a new project. I really don't know what to do. But don't worry, I promise I won't quit blogging, even if it costs me several sleep hours when I get back to school. 

I just want to be able to emanate the real me, my real essence and the things that happen in my life. Keep some diaries, and see how my art grows. (with whatever meaning we can find to it)

Thanks for reading. 
Lots of love, 


  1. I sometimes feel like that toooo. I am not one for partying hard and drinking and loud music and large crowds. And I do like to make colourful drawings of things like socks or birds or girls. And sometimes I feel a bit insecure about being childish. But fuck that you know. It is most important that you love to do what you do and enjoy your life. Never stop doing something you enjoy because others think it to be silly or childish. And don't do things you don't like just because that is considered normal for your age or something. I really like following other illustrators on instagram, because often they are like 30 or something and still drawing in a 'childish' way but they are proud of it. I think one should become an adult in their own way, to me I think that meant moving out from my parents house and building a new way of living together with my boyfriend in our little house. I am working on being an illustrator besides my studies, and yes that is really busy but I love it. So you don't have to wait until you are 'grown up' with becoming an artist :).

    and about blogging. I think you should think about why you (used to) like blogging, was it about sharing your thoughts, connecting with people, feeling proud of the large audience you reached. And then think about how you can fulfil this in a new way that fits with who you are now. I used to make a lot of diy things as well but I missed the feedback / comments / interaction. At first I started making these to contribute to the wonderful knowledge sharing part of the internet that I enjoyed reading so much. But at some point it became more like to gain views and becoming successful and I didn't enjoy it as much any more. So I kind of stopped blogging. But then I found my new passion, making art. And I love sharing this on instagram. I am currently making a website for interaction with future clients (I hope that it will work out (: ) and I think I am going to include a new blog where I share my process in being an artist/illustrator and tips on doing so. I don't know a lot of people in real life that are interested in this topic as much as I am and therefore it is fun to connect with others online.

    I wish you the best of luck with what the future holds for you and I hope you read my ramblings ;) (I liked writing them anyway)

    1. I'm so glad we are in the same boat. Sometimes it feels like you are the only one, but that isn't true. I really admire you, and how you have done things for yourself in that way Gemma! I only own my instagram to see pretty drawings, illustrations, and art as well.

      Internet is a great way to connect with people, and thank you for taking your time to write to me, you have given me better advise than any friend.. I sometimes feel like nobody listens, and that makes me sad. But it is not true, now I can see it.

      And concerning the blog, yes, I still like it. I think I will just change the topics a bit and share more of what I want. I will try to keep the lime, let's see what way life takes us to.

      Thanks again, for everything! I really hope your projects go and flow right, I'm sure they will.

      lost of love,

    2. naw, thank you for saying such nice things! It really makes me smile :) I always admired you for your amazing web design skills and your super cute style. (maybe we should be pen palls! although I am not super good at replying to letters quick but it is fun anyway :) )

  2. I think everyone is always a little reluctant to grow up and your right in saying it means something different to everyone. Some people become serious and others don’t it all depends on the person. I’m 22 and I suppose some would consider me as an adult, but to me I’m just me adult or not. I’ve never been a partying sort of girl I didn’t enjoy it and didn’t see the point and I don’t feel any regret in that. Going out and partying isn’t a necessary step to becoming an adult, if you don’t want to do it then don’t, if you do? Then go for it. I’m in my 3rd year of my Fine Art degree and have every intention of becoming an artist, no dream/goal that is important to you is childish. Art is not childish! In life you just got to do you and fuck those who say otherwise. Do what you want! Do whatever makes you happy. Don’t worry about growing up, I’m 22 and still like to read children’s books some would say that was childish but I don’t care because I like doing it and it makes me happy. Life is too short to do anything but the things that make you happy. xxx

    1. Thanks so much Jessica, it is great to hear from a fine arts student, they are really few where I live. And it is true, maybe it is all about that. You better do whatever you want and decide, either way they will always be people who criticise or disapprove what you do. It is better to do it for yourself.

      Thanks for encouraging me. Following dreams is the most important thing, I guess.
      And I also love children's books... I still own my favourites from when I was young, and keep buying some. I also would like to make ones when I get older, or even make some for mi kids :)

      Thanks so much for writing to me.

  3. You have a really cute blog, Monica!

    Sometimes I feel reluctant to grow up too, but it can be really awesome. There is no official definition of what it means to be a grown-up. Sure, you have to learn some skills like driving or banking, but there aren't any rules about what you should like or do for fun. I have always liked making things, so I'm getting a degree in design. I've always liked books and writing, so that's still what I do for fun. Worry about being you and being happy!

    One of my favorite quotes is "It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are." (EE Cummings) and also "Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself." (George Bernard Shaw)


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